love the bible. lol

hey.

i'm sick. i have a bleeding boogery nose. isn't that cute??
i'm giving a bible study tonight.. over 1 corinthians 9: 24-27
i'm really excited about it. i think its gonna be helpful for someone tonight. its like God told me what to say. so yea. read it. especially if ur an athlete. haha
http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=1%20corinthians%209&version=NIV

should be fun.
i look pretty cute tonight, though, for being a lame sick girl. hahahaha aight toodles.

imma be straight up pissed with this here paranormal activity. haha

so tonight i went to go see this movie paranormal activity.

definitely the first that i've seen of its kind... freakin scariest movie ever. so realistic, and the fact that demons are real is pretty intense..
bleh.

too many dark thoughts in my head.

lets think positively.
you know, i'm really proud of my decision not to drink. i don't judge people who do, and i'm more than willing to discover what the stuff tastes like, but i don't want to be someone who drinks at a party. idk why, i just like being lucid, i guess. haha.


he better text me tomorrow with a good explanation for why he cannot text or call back tomorrow. or imma be straight up pissed.

he is just not that into you

Have you guys ever seen the movie "he's just not that into you"? that movie changed my life. there were many characters and some of them were not people i'd befriend.. haha but the one underlying tone is what caught my attention.

life changing. did you hear me? listen close. this is my life's epiphany.

"you are not the exception to the classic love story, you are the rule. if a guy doesn't want to get a hold of you, he will make up every excuse in the book to get out of it. if a guy DOES want to get a hold of you, no excuse or situation will be able to stop him from calling you."

think about that. let it soak.

stop telling yourself that he hasn't called you because he's been busy, or on vacation, or going to school and is working on stuff. So are you, and you've had time to think about him. All guys think about is their friends, sports, tv, sex, and sleep. if they are christians, they add God into the mix. it's true. you need to think about this and TRY to dispute me wrong.

watermelonny cards.

nothing to write at the moment. sometimes, you know when you have too many thoughts in your head, you just can't get them out? yea. i'm getting one of those this week. i'm in a good mood, but the words just aren't coming out.



i love life. and i love redding, california. joy sent me a nice card today. thanks, joy. :)

so did alyssa greenblatt. a nice watermelonny card. haha.

go away demon of doubt!

my heart hurts for kids who are lost. i was thinking about columbine highschool today, about those poor kids who went through and shot all the kids. i actually visited columbine. its impossible to walk around the campus without getting chills. Then the memorial site is just so.. touching. its impossible to be someone who doesn't care about what happened, no matter what religion you are, no matter what you believe. There is so much leading up to what actually happened, that God's hand was in the situation, its impossible to see otherwise.
The two girls, cassie bernall and rachel scott, were so brave. how is it possible for anybody to be that brave? that with a gun pointed at their heads, they chose the right path. how much more does that make me want to choose the right path, to have that bravery and courage. they each wrote books, or actually books were written posthumously about them, and they are such touching books. They really reach down into the soul. man. they are good.
man. i'm a downer today.
i had some other downer things today happen too. they kinda sucked. they're not something i wanna announce to the world, but suffice it to say i just keep getting doubts. maybe i got a demon somewhere around my head plaguing me. that would really suck. hhahaha.

quiet my soul

still raining. still unattrative. haha i gave an announcement in chapel today about my student athlete ministries me and josh are running so i got all dressed up.. haha. in the wind. i wore a skirt. real smart trinity.

so i was thinking with lauren. i was thinking about my boyfriend, as usual, and i was thinking about how unfair i am to him, that i live 540 miles away, and i say that he still is with me. are we still together even though we live so stinking far? i mean the promise to stay faithful and to continue the relationship is so hard; i mean, i'm faithful, and i have no intentions of being anything different, but i have no idea how hard it is for him, i bet. i mean, he's a good lookin guy, and i bet there's a lot of good lookin ladies who DON'T live 540 miles away who are probably a lot sweeter and prettier than i am. u know? idk. whatever. we're talking about it right now, cuz i just feel SO bad.

yea. just thought i'd put this on the blog. seemed like a good idea.

song of the week. actually its the pondering song of the week.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g3k1rJOQPdY

according to my calculations..

huh. the day i get back to my favorite city in the world, it becomes a POURING rainstorm. yes! i just love drowning in a sea of raindrops! ah, well. its not my fault im still in a good mood and had the best weekend of the year due to some well placed family and friends. oh, btw dad. good sermon yesterday. interesting too. anyway, yea.

let's write.
what should we write about? idk.


haha lauren.


talk nerdy to me.